Was this planned??

It seems like one of the first things everybody asks is "were you trying?" or "was it a... surprise?" or "was this...on purpose?" To them I say...

ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!!

Ha, it's really not any of your business. But everyone seems to ask and I actually don't mind sharing, just don't judge.

I had been off of birth control since July of 2010 because I hated the way my body reacted to it. And up until November 2011 we were still preventing. However, we knew that once we got back from France, and settled in Houston, we wanted to start our family. So in November I went to my "woman's wellness" exam and I told my doctor that we wanted to have a baby. She replied by telling me that I was 20 lbs. underweight, probably didn't ovulate because of this, and would probably have a difficult time getting pregnant. I hate that doctor. I won't be delivering with her. (and I'm NOT 20 lbs. underweight)

Needless to say, it freaked me out a little bit. I felt some serious despair and I feel like I got a small glimpse of what it must feel like for women who aren't able to have children. My heart really goes out to them. So I went home and told Ben that we needed to get serious about tracking things so that if a year went by and we still weren't pregnant, we would know that we did all we could and it was time to see a specialist.

Well... you know that I found out I was pregnant in December, so it didn't take long, in fact, it was a little sooner than we expected. Once we calculated the due date, we realized that we will be bringing our baby home to our current 700 sqft. apartment and then moving three weeks later when our lease is up. Probably not ideal, but i'm so grateful that stupid doctor was wrong. Ben said to me the other day "I feel bad that it was so easy for us when some couples really struggle." And while i'm definitely not living with guilt everyday because I'm pregnant, I know what he means. So we've decided that we wont ever take that for granted. We are SO grateful we are fertile, SO grateful this baby came on the first try, and SO grateful to have this little nugget coming into our lives.

I also can't help put feel like the timing is perfect in our marriage. We will have been married three years by the time the baby gets here, and I'm grateful for those three years alone with my hub. I will also be 22 by the time the baby gets here, which is the same age my mom and my sister were when they had their first babes. I only wish my dad would be around to see the baby grow up, but I know that it is coming now for a reason, and if my dad passes before the baby comes, he will give him or her a kick in the tush to get down to earth so that this mama isn't overdue. haha.