I have a midterm tomorrow so I should really be sleeping, but I can't. I wonder if it has anything to do with the dark chocolate chips I've been popping every time I walk by the pantry? ... nah.
I like to be asleep before Ben comes to bed because then I don't have to hear him complain about me taking up the bed. I'm very selfish. These days he never comes to bed when I do cause he has to study so much. Wanna know what time he came to bed last night? 4:30. Isn't that sick?
Today I was walking to class with my cute new friend Kalli, when she asked me how long I had been married. I figured it sounded silly to say "A year and four months" so I rounded it off and said, "Almost a year and a half." Kalli just got married two weeks ago so when I said this she just looked at me and said, "Wow." As if I am some kind of expert or something.
Well, for some reason it really freaked me out and I haven't been able to stop thinking about the fact that I've been married for almost a year and a half. I keep wondering where the time has gone, ESPECIALLY the last four months. It seems like our anniversary was just yesterday. Time is speeding by faster than it ever has before and it's making me feel panicked. I just want to yell, "SLOW DOWN!" I want to still be a newlywed. Don't take that away from me yet, OK life?
Earlier today I was watching this video of NieNie and her beautiful family and it honestly made me cry. I know, I'm a baby. But they just looked so happy and in love and it made me picture Ben and I with a whole slew of kiddo's and it just made me cry OK? It also made me think of my bridal video and our wedding video, so Ben and I watched them together. It was fun. It reminded us how fun that day was and how much we love each other. It also made me feel like I had salvaged my newlywed-ness.
Also, can you believe I have lost 15 pounds since my wedding day? I mean, I didn't think I was fat before and when I look at that video I don't feel like I look any different (well except for the boobs, I'm 20 years old and I now have ski slopes... just bein honest) but I guess that's what lots of yoga will do to ya.
Another also, I hate the way my feet look in that video as I walk down the stairs of the temple barefoot. So don't pay attention to that if you watch the video, OK?
Alright, I better go to bed.
Goodnight!
2 comments:
I hate that I can't see when you post on your blog. Annnyyyway. I read your most recent post and this one and realized that it's been way too long since we've hung out. Haha. Also, i am very glad you made it out alive after the gym. Pretttyy scary! Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that I read your whole posts, since you commented that most people probably wouldn't make it through haha
Thanks Alicia. Maybe I'll just start directing my blog posts right at you since you are the only one that reads it. :)
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