This morning, before I started getting ready to drive home from Salt Lake (I went up there for the weekend), I went outside to play with my nephew. The air was chilly and it was really foggy (like San Fran style) and my nephew was dressed in a cute button-up shirt with jeans and monkey boots. I looked over at him as we were walking down the hill in my parents backyard and he was smiling, excited because we were playing outside. And then it happened. I had one of those moments. The moments where you are so overwhelmed with happiness that you feel like your heart is going to explode. His cute little outfit, his cute red hair and his cute smiling face just got to me. I swear he is the cutest kid in the world. Maybe it was the poor air quality that turned me into a kook, but I wanted to press pause and stay in that moment forever because it was perfection. Who would've thought that I could love a little person so much when they aren't even mine?
Then as I was driving home and listening to Christmas music, I thought back to that moment and I started to cry. And I cried for a good hour or so. I cried because of my overwhelming happiness and gratitude. And I'm beginning to cry again as I write this. I am just. so. happy. To the point that it scares me. My life is so perfect right now and I'm afraid something tragic is going to happen because this happiness can't last forever, right? But for now I am going to suppress the paranoia and enjoy the happiness of the present.
I feel like this weekend really jump started the Christmas season for me. It really made me stop and ponder the meaning of Christmas and count my blessings. I'm so thankful for that.
I hope that everybody experiences the happiness that I feel at some point in their lives. The kind of happiness that is so overwhelming it brings you to tears.
Merry Christmas everybody!
P.S. I know that everyone thinks that their own nieces/nephews/kids/grandkids are the cutest kids in the world and you probably scoffed when I said mine was the cutest. But that is OK. I'm glad you think that about your own niece/nephew/kid/grandkid because that means there is a lot of love going around. Nothing makes me happier than a child that feels loved.
3 comments:
aww I think you just almost made my heart explode hah! I think this will happen to me when I pick up Mr. Charming at the airport soon :) I will smile and cry and just AHH so excited :) I am so glad you are happy and that I love reading these kinds of posts!
Syd, this is so inspiring! I love the fact that you are so happy! When people read this post i'm sure it will touch them, and make them feel a little piece of your happiness! Just like it did to me! We need to get together soon! xoxo, Brit
this post is amazing...your words are wonderful and so inspiring. it is the greatest feeling in the world to feel so incredibly happy and like you said it feels like your heart is going to explode!
thank you for this great read...it reminds us all to appreciate the small things and just be happy!!
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